Super huge life update

So, like, it's been a while since I updated my journal with something important. I guess now is a good time to do so.

As most of you know, I moved out of my home around 2 months ago. Right now I already moved out of my friend's house too, so I'm living on my own in a little apartment I'm renting. I moved in yesterday, my friends helped me out with everything. They're great people, and they've helped me out so much.
The last couple weeks have been weird. My mood hadn't been too bright for some reason. The people that know me would have been stranged over my behaviour in the last months. I don't know what was going on to be honest, I think I was sort of very anxious about finally being completely alone in a little place.
Yesterday I felt somewhat pessimistic. I spent the day packing and finishing some translation work. My friends went to a comic convention, so I was home alone. I hadn't ever felt so lonely like during those hours. By night it got better, but when my friends left and I stayed in my apartment by myself it really really felt empty. I had to swallow it and started putting everything in place. Clothing in the closet, milk in the fridge. You know.
Then I went out and I noticed one of my neighbours was picking up some dead branches, so I went up to her to ask her if there was any laundry around there.

We talked until 1 am.

Today I woke up at 9, went to the laundry she told me about, discovered another one that's cheaper, found a hair saloon, talked to my landlord's mother a bit (she's on the house by the side of my apt.) and even became friends with a little kid in the park that's close by.

Right now I'm just looking back at how I felt yesterday and thinking "you're an idiot". I felt disappointed in so much shit, but right now I realize I shouldn't have felt that way.
My neighbours are great, the apartment is small, but I made it cozy. I slept like a baby. Right now I don't have internet there, but I'm logged in from my work during lunch hour. It might be boring for sometime while I hire phone and internet, but you know? It's not nearly as lonely as I thought it would be. Actually, I'm not lonely at all. I still hate my job, hahahaha, but I'm already searching for another one. I'll jjust have to cope with this one to survive.

Liam, I take back what I said yesterday. I finished fighting that philosophy, and I won Cx.

My friends are great, and they have helped me such a GREAT deal. The new apartment is great, I already feel at home! And the people around it are also great.

So, you know? After a couple months of being up and down in my moods, I think now that my life is actually starting the way I wanted it to start, I really got my natural smile back on my face. And today the sun is shining bright.

Next Saturday, one of my best friends, bah-zero99, is moving in with me. We're going to rent this apartment together, so it'll be even less lonely. I bet we're going to be fine. Things were always moving forward, but what was stagnated was my mind.

Now I'm free~